my foot on the back of your neck

Hahaha, I binged and threw up again. I know it's actually called purging, but to me, the word sounds extremely stupid, so I don't like using it.

Anyway, my menu for today was...

Breakfast:

*2 bowls of Special K with milk and stevia.

*1 medium double chocolate muffin.

*1 cup of black coffee with stevia.

Lunch:

*1 medium chocolate chip muffin.

*2 cans of diet coke.

*4 Miss Vickies Salt and Vinegar chips.

Dinner?:

*4 Two-Bite Brownies.

*4 Two-Bite Cinnamon Rolls.

*1 cinnamon roll from Cobs.

*2 potatoes - sliced up and microwaved with a slice of cheddar cheese on top.

And I threw up. LOLOL I find it so funny how I'm trying to recover, yet I keep eating like this and throwing up afterwards. I'm still 90 pounds.

I guess my trigger is still because of yesterday. The dude keeps staring at me with this look of... sadness? I dunno, whenever I'm looking in his direction and he looks back, I'll quickly turn my head. He makes me sick.

Quite literally.